February 2012
11 posts
“ride
It’s just a state of mind
Freedom and time
Has got me frozen up...”
Gorillaz’s, “Dare”
Misheard Lyrics:
You’ve got depression on you.
Original Lyrics:
You’ve got to press it on you.
more like
” you get depressive on me..” may be wrong English……
Smooooooooth
As I break your heart…..
Why did God teared us apart ?
Do you believe him
Or. Me?
I m a liar
Straight from your pillow
Wiping willow
Am I ?
Why?
Why you
Yasashiiiii
Close to me
But still too far…
My feelings in the jar
My emotions in the bar
My sex is in my bra
You are too far
Yo are too close
Don’t touch
Don’t speak
My hair s slick
And smooth
So as your moves
Like cat
Like the abandon sin
And you ll always win
You ll suck me dry
But I ll survive
To come back a you
To get my new me
And new you
Hammer in your brains
You...
One day I will hang myself….
But I lll have a kid/ baby…. So my family won’t hate me too much and wont be so sad…..
Right
?
Woman / angel
Star wars
Just do not tell me….
Why….
Ti hochesh ” повергать меня в пучину бескомпромиссной деятельности. “
I think I m stupid spilling vodka in my face and trying to sniff it with m nose….
Yes , I am…
But still
” небо цвета сталь “
And do t tell me what good or not….
But anyway yo are just saying
” life is hard for anyone”
...
Vodka ice
What a surprise
If he ll ask me again ” молилась ли ты на ночь, Дездемона?”…….
I ll kill him,
И помолюсь…….
I changed the love and the place…..
Is it done for happiness
Is it through the pressure
Your eternal pleasure…
“Daydream
My daydream seems as one inside of you
Though it seems hard to...”
January 2012
9 posts
Give me brush……
Left or right eye lost the lash
Ignore the wrong one
Right forever
Oh, up are so clever
Aaaah….
Past present past not pleasant
Strike
Me look it over
My life m lover
Black
Black
Black
Abandoned from my world
Watch him melt
Watching ice-cream melt….
Give me sunshine let me melt in your arms
Wrap me in your scars
Till sunrise
You are wise
Give me knowledge…..
Straight from bottom to the edge
Stare at me
Love me
Stare with love
Grow
Blow….
I blew it all away…
My golden fish lifestyle
You mine now,mine
But wha will get?
A lot
If you’ll forget
I...
“The days flowed by smoothly,regularly,uneventfully.”
Pumpkin soup
i remember one Saturday morning you asked me what I want for breakfast….and I said pumpkin soup out of the blue thinking that’s is impossible to have creamy hot pumpkin soup on satuday mornings….but you went downstairs and came back half hou later with beautiful bowl of pumpkin soup you ve made……
Called the loved ones You-
あなた
Your voice like
Лунная соната……
Gin orange,radiohead….that’s how I do my homework
Love you over the phone
Hang up and love is gone
Forever in my dreams
Life is not what it seems
Spill milk on a red carpet
And red wine on white dress
You are so obsessed with me
So dreamy as reality don’t see
We are so close
and you closed me with a lock
On a door that called love
Don’t let me choose
Or I will chose my freedom
That dreamy fruity smell
With freshness of...
….”Especially with you
Said you’d leave by Christmas
Said you’d leave by June
Stop drinking for a while
That’s a compromise
Maybe go and see an adult movie
Breaking up is hard to do
Breaking up is hard to do
Breaking up is hard to do
Especially with you
Especially with you
And on your birthday
You’re twenty two
Someone’s anniversary...
December 2011
17 posts
I model for 10 years and never made it as a model
Stupid me….
And now when i officially quit (did I, really)
That’s driving me crazy In a way
I think that I can still do smth..
The problem always was….either boyfriends of my usual ” I just don’t feel like this” attitude
Don feel look good, prefer to look like a bum, not washing my hair and wear shi...
Silvia Plath story….
I kind of threw everything away out of the train window as well….
Or I wanted to do that
And just left unattended
It’s not actually that so thats makes me feel stupid
And missing things…
Here’re
Why…
I wanted to buy red paint
And draw Japanese flag…
Instead I bought p,um wine
What for…
Can’t sleep anyway and...
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees
yesoooooooooooooooooright desicion
iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii mean you are stupid…and you just trying to fall out of your window
but what is there…………..
did u think about you mum????????//
think
MUM
think it over
and then……………….if u falll on motorbyke, delivering pizzas what your mum gonna think of u
oh dreams
some sort of drug you take and you are lost for years..you dont know where you are..and who you are..and then…someone found you you when you are already relatively old..and then you remembered after what they ve told you….
airplanes and big field of rare plants, mosttly green salads and herbs..beautiful forests
red
wine and japanese fermented beans ….so dont go together….
”gonna take my hips to the man who cares…” so, i did..and then what..
i wonder what is the difference to live with someone who loves you or someone who cares about you and who loves you…and someone who need you just for prestige but will give you everything..or someone who quietly loves you not to show...
sometimes it works
you just have to find the way
I like to write when i m drunk….cause i dont write any other way…
messy messy drunk
i will say’i love you’……..cause i have nothing else to say
and its cuts of the conversation
oh, i m so selfish……
ahahhahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
LOVE
would you stand on stand by…””
just making mo mess..and i dont get a phone cal saying”i m leaving, dja ne..’and no more tears left….
listening to shed 7… and then what……old old nothing new….i will colour my hair again..more vivid orange…just have to get out the house….drunk taking…thats all i do…or otherwise i...
mess
no more clean glasses..it washes of by itself with the next drink…with a third drink you dont feel the taste of the first anymore….and ice kindly stays at the bttom of the glass to wash away the oil of wine….I cook food that i cannot taste…meat makes it ugly…my vegetables are lost in a meat dish….its all grey colour…or dark brown or just brown….or...
November 2011
14 posts
i saw big waves in my dream.tsunami, taiphoon
I WANT TO LIVE IN AN EASY WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEEP..
one hour…
beeep
another…
i m lost in nowhere even if i know where exactly i am…
i will give loving kiss and hug
but what and why and who is me……………
skinny little bamboo tree
sing a song with zebra tee
i feel like im dying ///there are so many thoughts about it….so many tears, i dont even feel that i m supportive...
WHAT IS IT..........ANSWER ME................
mistakes
that s all it ll takes………..
am i industrial design or executive business manager………….
ha……………….
i ll grow my hair till it long
enought
to
built a castle for a prince
i ll shave it off
and be a nun….
i will go far away to pray
no matter what you do
it will be always you………..
thank u
what the F… is wrong with You………….?
fears of randomness
tears……….
i got used to or addicted to receive frequent emails….and whats now…just worried
and its obviously smth wrong…
recently i m surprised with my ability to sense things…. and even scared..
i know all its gonna be ok at the end.but where is end…and why end….even that i had to end….forever….just cant realize it 100 %...
